One Step at a Time
While we were in MN a few weeks ago, we went over to FIL's fiancee's daughter's to go swimming.
I discovered something about myself.
Here is the gorgeous view of the lake behind her house.
I am standing at the edge of a steep slope. I have seen slopes leading to the lake before. The lake I grew up on had a small slope, but the other side of the lake was pretty steep. Mostly, though, it's not always that bad of a slope. Sometimes, some lakes are level with the ground.
There were concrete steps leading down to the pier.
Now, I mentioned before about how descending steps can be in a previous post.
As I stared down these steps, my heart pounded. Concrete is the worst. One step blends into the other and I can't tell where one step ends and the next step begins. I have bad depth perception. On top of it all, there were no railings. Nothing to hold on to. I knew I had to be guided down those steps.
My daughter held my hand as I descended. The steps were small. I had to go down sideways. My feet were too big for the steps.
Then the automatic counting began. Five small steps, then a bigger, longer one. Five more, then a big one. Then six small ones, then a bigger step. Then four little steps, then a bigger one. Now we reached the bottom step.
Here's two similar pictures of the steps looking up.
Looks pretty steep, doesn't it? Scroll back up and look at the second picture showing the top of the incline, looking down.
I never had an issue going up steps before. Not really. I felt dizzy without a railing to hold on to. I asked (yes, I asked! This does not come easy for me.) for assistance to get back up. I felt like a toddler hanging on to her mommy as she was guided up, one step at a time.
Constant adjustments. Always. Little by little, I have to find the right time to be independent (yes, I can be stubborn) or swallow my pride and ask for help. Other times, I just don't want to argue with another person because they mean well-but they just make me feel like I can't do anything for myself.
This is personal growth.